I am embaressed to say that i was supposed to do my Shahada on Sunday and i bottled it. I don't know what happened or why i could'nt do it, but i just got this scared feeling and have no answer as to why.
Pregnancy has changed me and not for the better, i miss my old self, as does my husband. When will i come back? I have little life in me these days, feel numb, have no excitement for this pregnancy that i have longed for and don't feel much towards my own dear loving husband. What is going on with me!!!!
I was so ready spiritually to become a Muslimah, yet since becoming pregnant i feel none of this anymore. I have always loved my husband to bits, but since the pregnancy i don't feel much. Don't get me wrong, i don't Hate Islam or my Husband, i just don't feel much towards either.
Insha'allah i am going to try and slowly learn to pray and maybe this will help me :) I hope it does anyway.......
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About Me
- Sonya
- I'm all grown up now and married lol. I was married last year and love it. We are now expecting our first baby in February! My one wish is to have a happy and healthy family who grow up in a secure family environment. May God help me to achieve this and succeed.
2 comments:
Ah poor you! It can be tough, but remember it's only a phase and will pass in sha Allah. Try and take time out for yourself. Do things that make you feel good and relaxed. May Allah ease things for you and give you the peace, strength and conviction to do what's right :)
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i am sorry you are having it real rough , perhaps its the all change , changes in your self , anxities , fear and worries of motherhood to come. Try to take it a day at a time and at yourself first, stop worring about other stuff for abit, the sickness will ease hopefully. i am sorry you never got to take your shahaadah Allah Al must'aan. I will make dua Allah help you in this.
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