What an awful time i am having with this pregnancy! I cannot describe how horrid i feel, although i am sure there are many women who can understand this.
Last week it got so bad that hubby took me to hospital and they admitted me. They pumped me with fluids, vitamins and anti sickness drugs. Hamdulillah it worked and it did make me feel a bit better. I am now taking quite alot of tablets to help keep the sickness away, although i am still being sick everyday, it is much less than before. If only the tablests would take the Feeling sick away! But we can't have everything eh?!
I must admit and was feeling a bit ashamed of this at first, but i hate being pregnant so far. I am numb to it all and feel no excitement. I never ever thought that this is how i would feel. I am sure that i will feel very differently once insha'allah this sickness passes, or when i hold my baby in my arms.
I have also stopped studying Islam as i cannot concentrate on anything and just feel nothing. Is'nt this so awful? Friends keep telling me to stop worrying, things will return to normal.... Insha'allah!
There is my moan, sorry for boring you :(
Monday, 30 June 2008
Friday, 6 June 2008
I am pregnant!!!!
So i just found yesterday that i am pregnant and to be honest i am still in shock over it. It did'nt take us as long as we thought it might.
It explains why i have been feeling tired, i had just put it down to my new job as it is more demanding than my last job. Also, have been hungry alot and there is no way i would have thought that could be connected to pregnancy at such an early stage. Maybe that is just a coincidence.
Anyway, threw a sickie at work thinking i would go and see the doctor this morning, but when i rang, the woman said you see the nurse at between 6-8 weeks, so i am going next friday morning. I thought it was weird, but then what would i know, this is my first baby.
I am meeting with my lovely friend Rachael tomorrow who is over the moon for me. She said we'd window shop for baby things, to help it all sink in. Neither hubby or i can quite believe it yet. I checked the two pregnancy tests that i did at least 30 times yesterday, comparing the pictures on the leaflet and box and re-reading it all over and over again LOL.
As much as i am happy with my news, i feel even more so for my friends who are still trying for their baby but have had no luck so far. Insha'allah they will be blessed with a baby soon.
So now after wanting this so badly, i am going to take it easy, not over work myself and not go crazy on the cleaning like i usually do, but maybe break it up a little to help ease that. Hubby is great though, he helps alot anyway, so he will probably be helping out more now :)
It explains why i have been feeling tired, i had just put it down to my new job as it is more demanding than my last job. Also, have been hungry alot and there is no way i would have thought that could be connected to pregnancy at such an early stage. Maybe that is just a coincidence.
Anyway, threw a sickie at work thinking i would go and see the doctor this morning, but when i rang, the woman said you see the nurse at between 6-8 weeks, so i am going next friday morning. I thought it was weird, but then what would i know, this is my first baby.
I am meeting with my lovely friend Rachael tomorrow who is over the moon for me. She said we'd window shop for baby things, to help it all sink in. Neither hubby or i can quite believe it yet. I checked the two pregnancy tests that i did at least 30 times yesterday, comparing the pictures on the leaflet and box and re-reading it all over and over again LOL.
As much as i am happy with my news, i feel even more so for my friends who are still trying for their baby but have had no luck so far. Insha'allah they will be blessed with a baby soon.
So now after wanting this so badly, i am going to take it easy, not over work myself and not go crazy on the cleaning like i usually do, but maybe break it up a little to help ease that. Hubby is great though, he helps alot anyway, so he will probably be helping out more now :)
Tuesday, 3 June 2008
My Faith
Here we have a blog that is quite a sensitive area for me and may sound a little strange to others.
Since being in Algeria and returning, i seem to have backed away from Islam a little, rather than embrace it. I thought i would feel more spiritual being there, but had mixed feelings. 1 feeling was feeling left out, as i have not converted and cannot pray, yet the second feeling when i returned was that i did'nt feel that spiritual connection and i actually got quite upset.
I spoke to a couple of other sisters about this and they said not to worry and it even happened to one sister i know. I have been back from Algeria just over a week and i am starting to feel better al hamdulillah. I am also meeting up with a good sister friend of mine on Saturday for the day and i will have a good talk with her about this. I know she will help put this in perspective for me.
I have always said that i felt spiritually ready for Islam, but not knowledgeable enough. But after talking with one sister not so long ago, she said to make it (Shahada) and learn after. She said, what if you died today? It was a little scary in a way and made me realise i would'nt end up with my beloved hubby if i died right now. So what to do now....?
It is all a little confusing for me and sometimes feel a bit lost with it all. I think i may have tried to take a little too much on all at once.
Since being in Algeria and returning, i seem to have backed away from Islam a little, rather than embrace it. I thought i would feel more spiritual being there, but had mixed feelings. 1 feeling was feeling left out, as i have not converted and cannot pray, yet the second feeling when i returned was that i did'nt feel that spiritual connection and i actually got quite upset.
I spoke to a couple of other sisters about this and they said not to worry and it even happened to one sister i know. I have been back from Algeria just over a week and i am starting to feel better al hamdulillah. I am also meeting up with a good sister friend of mine on Saturday for the day and i will have a good talk with her about this. I know she will help put this in perspective for me.
I have always said that i felt spiritually ready for Islam, but not knowledgeable enough. But after talking with one sister not so long ago, she said to make it (Shahada) and learn after. She said, what if you died today? It was a little scary in a way and made me realise i would'nt end up with my beloved hubby if i died right now. So what to do now....?
It is all a little confusing for me and sometimes feel a bit lost with it all. I think i may have tried to take a little too much on all at once.
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