This is'nt a post to make people feel sorry for me, i just need to tell people how i feel. This all stems from being pregnant and being pregnant is not something i am enjoying. I am tired All the time, i have swollen feet, ankles and now calves. I need a new pair of boots to fit my new sized feet and i have been to so many shoe shops and have found it impossible to find a pair that fit. This is the bit you may find where you think i am being vain, but i'm not......
Ok, so i know i can't wear heels whilst pregnant, but also don't want to wear ugly flat boots. I thought if i'm ging to spend money on a new pair of boots, i may as well like them right? Could i find any.... nope? So ended up with a cheap pair of small wedges that i feel look awful.
My skin is greasier than usual, i suppose i should be thankful that my hair has stopped falling out (for now!). My clothes are obviously maternity or big clothes, so just in general i feel yukky. I try and look nice for hubby, but just feel ugly and fat all the time. And i won't go into what other feelings i have lost! He says it's fine, that i look great and i can buy lots of nice things when the baby is here and we can go and buy some nice boots then (dh liked my taste in clothes in footwear............)
I found a gorgoeus handbag (expensive one) that i wanted to get, but he made me feel a bit guilty about it, so don't expect i'll be getting that now. Even though it would have come from my wages, we have all the money for baby things and i did'nt ask hubby for a penny towards the bag and purse. I work really hard, so why not treat myself to something, even though it is expensive! It's not like i can buy anything else at the moment! I just wanted something pretty.....
I'm sorry, i am having a real moan and most of you will be reading thinking what a selfish cow i am! But i'm not, i'm just not myself at the moment :(
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Selfish cow no your just preggers and having the down side not all pregnacy's glow, you sound like i did with my first , i went from between a size 6-8 to a 16-18 in 9mths everything expanded and i felt well so ugly ...........i felt noone else understood me and i just wanted to hide but i couldn't afford to buy any new clothes and suffered alot but alhamduilah years later and i look back and say alhamduilah. sometimes going through such hardships shape us in, don't be too hard on yourself ad go get the purse if you feel you really need it but if its comfort spending then curb the desire for the bag. donate the money to the needy and it will weight heavy for you before god and make someone happy to. cheer up sonya only another 128 days to go ....
insha'allah things will get better for you soon :) just try to put things into perspective and remember those out there who will never get to feel a baby moving inside of them or the joy of seeing a newborn. Alhamdulillah
Have you tried Evans? they are usually quite good for wide fit shoes and boots.
Nothing like a good moan to feel better afterwards and failing that retailtherapy which you seem doing ok with, lol. Yeah, treat yourself!!
Take care.
Oh Sonya - these feelings are horrible. You think you are going to feel wonderful while you are pregnant, but unfortunately, for many of us, it is not what we dreamt of. Inshallah all will go back to normal after the baby comes - the time will soon pass.
It's good to have somewhere where you can let off steam - better than shouting at your husband!!!! Try to get some rest - put your feet up and be waited on if you can.
Lots of love and hugs.
Rainbow you are so right, i don't really need it and changed my mind on the whole thing last night after having more difficulties with my mother (long story). I am going to put that money in savings instead :)
Ammena, you are also so right, i should be so thankful for being given this blessing.
All of you: Thank you so much for understanding! :)
Salaam Sis,
I wanted to offer you some info on swelling, high blood pressure etc. during pregnancy. Dr. Tom Brewer made a lot of head way for these conditions and many woman have benefited from his research. http://www.blueribbonbaby.org/ is his website and his book is "Metabolic Toxemia of Late Pregnancy: A Disease of Malnutrition". This is of course a holistic approach to help avoid and help cure some of the "normal" pregnancy ailments. Let me know if you want to chat about it, I spend a lot of time helping Moms and researching.
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